building a door, following through

I'm trying to learn to follow through. I've always been someone with grandiose aspirations, yet I've been afraid all my life to take the necessary first steps towards them. I'm letting go of that right now. In my last post, I was kind of talking to myself - coming to the realization that in this life there are no doormen, only gatekeepers, and the fear of those gatekeepers has kept me down my whole life. Yet, if I'm to get what I want, I can't wait to be let in, I have to build my own door.

Some people say they're going to build that door, but it's hard work, so they put it off until next week, and then the next week, and then the next month, until years have gone by and there's not even a frame. I've been one of those people until now, but this time I'm going to follow through.

Some people say they don't know how to build a door. They spend their time looking up "how to build a door", perhaps reading all the door building material there is, but never start building the door. They tell themselves that they can't build the door until they know how, or until they can make the perfect door. But that day never comes. I've been one of those people until now, hoarding my art, waiting until I had the perfect collection before I showed anyone, waiting and waiting and waiting. But this time I'm going to follow through.

Some people are just too weak to build a door. They can't lift the wood, or get a few splinters before falling apart. They are unwilling put in the work to grow their muscles and thicken their skin so they can build the door one day. They just know they can't do it now, so they don't even begin to try. I've been that person until now. But this time I'm going to follow through.

Building a door is hard work, but I can't imagine what it will feel like when I finish.

For all my creative people out there, I recommend the book "Show Your Work!" by Austin Kleon. It will give you hope.